09 July, 2012
There are some things that stick out to me in this;
First: He believes in God, that Jesus died for our sins, and yet has not made that decision for Christ.
Second: It seems as though this has gone on for some years, his not accepting yet wanting to know more.
Third: He is hungry to know so much more, yet will not commit. It seems as though he were waiting for something to happen, an answer, a "happening" to occur, before he will make any commitment.
First, I think of Paul. When and how he came to Christ was extremely important. It happened in such a way and a time that, when he did make that commitment, he did so with such zeal and fervor that we now have a Mission Field. The time he spent not knowing Christ and, indeed, fighting against Him, defined the commitment he did make!
Second, it seems as though God could be using this time in much the same way He did with Paul. To develop a great, deep desire to fulfill a call that only he can. One that will be better understood with time. Paul did not come to Christ while He was still here, not while he sat in instruction. He came when his time, according to God's timetable, was ready! When Paul's mind and heart were ready for that decision and for a call to Ministry. The hunger he feels, may be along that same line. Fielding wants to know, but isn't ready in understanding. Is it possible that God is holding back on something until that time has come?
For what? Is it possible that God would have Fielding to start a Church there? Fielding will have a great understanding of why a Church needs to be there, from his own time before conversion. He will also have this huge need to do more than just sit back and do nothing! His wife wants to do more than that! He is hungry and he knows what he is hungry for. Many people I know, are going to hell, and they know it! It isn't because they want to, not because they like the idea, they just don't know where else to go! Fielding may very well be that answer for that area.